My Personal Battle With Skin Picking
- January 15, 2019
- Jenny Logan
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always picked at the skin on my hands. That isn’t the only place. I’ll also take after my lips or whatever scrape isn’t healing quite fast enough, but by and large my hands are my worst victim. You may find this hard to believe, but it’s some kind of weird addiction and somehow related to the same disorder that affects people who pull out their hair.
For those of you who think this is silly and that I should “just stop,” try to understand the depth of the issue. I have no control over when I pick and often don’t even realize when I’m doing it. My career in technology often requires me to spend moments just being still and mentally troubleshooting an issue. During these times I’ll inevitably begin picking at my hands and will even delay the transition back to typing in order to complete my task. If someone notices the scars on my hands, I’ll usually say it’s a burn and if they continue to pry I just brush it off with tell of a “long story”. I’m not generally a self-conscious person, but I do get tired of explaining something so obscure.
If someone notices the scars on my hands, I’ll usually say it’s a burn and if they continue to pry I just brush it off with tell of a “long story”.
I don’t have any other weird mental issues or crazy problems like forgetting to wear pants and throwing eggs at the grocery store. It’s just this one small, but HUGE thing.
My hands constantly hurt and different areas are consistently in different states of healing, scabbing or bleeding. I’ve attempted countless times to quit, or use a different hand lotion. I’ll paint my nails in an effort to remind myself of the ongoing battle. I’ve even tried medication in the form of SSRI’s. Hilariously, I am part of a small group of people who suffer from hair loss as a side effect of these medicines. Oh well. It didn’t seem to help with my skin picking anyway.
My hands constantly hurt and different areas are consistently in different states of healing, scabbing or bleeding.
I’ve found little helpful information around the web to help relieve the issue. There are support groups for this type of thing, though it seems like a bit of a wide spread group. Apparently, many people get started with this kind of thing as a form of trying to clear an offending hangnail or pimple. This doesn’t seem to fit me. I just do. Additionally, I don’t know if substituting a rubber ball when I recognize a trigger is going to remedy a 25-year condition. Maybe I’m just being cynical because I haven’t found what works for me yet.
I do wish that I had a handy set of tips and tricks to help you if you’re suffering from the same thing. Unfortunately, with this one I haven’t yet won the battle. What I am doing is attempting to improve my level of accountability to myself by writing this article. The only other thing I’ve found is Neutrogena Hand Cream Norwegian Formula. Don’t accidentally pick the fast-drying version. It doesn’t do the same job. It helps with the pain and softens the calloused skin.
Today I start a fresh attempt to repair my hands. Maybe in a year I’ll be able to get a manicure!